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  • 18 – Peace of Mind with the Mind of Christ

    I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.
    John 14:27 (NLT)

    My previous car was stolen last July. The car I purchased in September was broken into in November—someone had tampered with the lock and gotten inside, taking a couple of items of no real value. The lock was fixed later that month, and just last night someone attempted to break into it again, but couldn’t. The lock was tampered with, yet again. 

    My car being stolen last year taught me what it meant to walk on troubled waters. It wasn’t so severe a situation that I would call it walking in a valley, but it was a test of my faith. As I navigated this terrain, God reminded me of the importance of storing up my treasures in heaven 1 and knowing that my help comes from the Lord. 2 I believed in my God who redeems and restores. Through taking steps of faith, I found Him faithful. The new car was an even bigger blessing than the last. Losing my car led me to move to a new apartment that I liked even better. Throughout it all, God brought me closer to Him and His people.

    But then my car was broken into (the first time), and initially, I couldn’t believe it. It was so soon after I had gotten it, and I didn’t anticipate this would happen. Yet God reminded me that ultimately it is He who watches over me. Since I had purchased the new car, I started praying anytime I parked anywhere. I was grateful that, despite it being broken into, nothing valuable was taken, and the intruder hadn’t smashed the windows. Someone close to me helped me fix the tampered lock, and I thanked God for how the act helped me build trust with this person. 

    Fast forward to yesterday. Earlier in the day, Holy Spirit spoke to me that I need to uproot control in my heart. Believing that I’m in control is ultimately believing a lie. I don’t say that to disregard personal accountability or the role we’re called to play as God works in and through our lives. Yet, I do say it, believing that God is sovereign and the One who holds it all together. This is especially true when we walk through storms that we had no part in creating.

    A surrendered life doesn’t ask “Why is this happening?” It recognizes that while we wouldn’t choose every trial we faced, God’s sovereignty and grace cover every aspect of our lives. His grace works all situations for good, and that means I’m allowed to live abundantly, no matter what happens. The enemy comes to steal and kill and destroy, and though he has attempted to rob me of my peace, I’ve graduated from believing that peace of mind is something I can manufacture. My peace doesn’t come from my circumstances. I have peace of mind because I have the mind of Christ. I may not understand why this keeps happening or how God will ultimately use it for His glory, but I know that He will. In the meantime, I can rest knowing that He is with me.

    1. “Don’t store up treasures here on earth, where moths eat them and rust destroys them, and where thieves break in and steal. ‘( Matthew 6:19, NLT)
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    2. ‘I look up to the mountains— does my help come from there? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth! ‘
      (Psalms 121:1-2, NLT) ↩︎
  • 17 – What It Means To Give God My “Yes” This Year

    Now it is required that those who have been given a trust must prove faithful.
    1 Corinthians 4:2 (NIV)

    It means recognizing without hesitation or doubt that God has entrusted gifts to me that I’ve been called to steward faithfully. These gifts of grace—the words that He’s spoken to my heart on the mountain tops and in the valleys—are not for me alone. These streams of living water were never meant to remain stagnant. They were meant to flow in and through me to all those around me.

    It means remembering that in every space He’s called me to, from school to work, He has equipped me for. I have the grace to do all that He’s called me to do and be all that He’s called me to be—His salt and light. I’m called to bring the Good News with me everywhere I go, through the words I speak, the posture I carry, and the fruit that blooms from my life.

    It means knowing that all of this will be too much for me to handle alone, but God hasn’t asked me to use my own strength. He will empower me from His glorious and unlimited resources, but that also requires abiding in Him.1 It means seeking Him first through time in His word, fellowship, prayer, and worship. It means walking alongside the community He’s brought into my life, the church I’ve been planted in, which forms the bride of Christ.

    It means submitting and surrendering every blessing back to Him. Every relationship, resource, and all of my time and talents. It all belongs to Him anyways. I won’t know how the entire journey will unfold, but I don’t need to. I’m simply called to be obedient one step at a time.

    It means understanding that ultimately this is all still for an audience of One: my God. When I fall short, and inevitably I will, I’m reminded that, as His child, there’s nothing that would make Him love me any less.

    I love how new seasons give new meaning to familiar words. I’ve been listening to “Only Jesus” since it was released in 2023, but reciting its verses this year sparked something new for me. With all that God has done in my life thus far and all that I’ve learned about Him and myself in this past season of life, what “yes” do I have to offer Him? What has He asked of me, as both His daughter and His disciple?

    This entry is my response.
    Father, I pray for the grace to be faithful.

    Your daughter,
    Antoinette

    My posture for life is surrender 
    My posture for life is “yes”
    My posture for life is hands wide open 
    My posture for life is a song of surrender 
    I say, “Yes.”


    —Housefires, DOE, Kirby Kaple, Chandler Moore

    Questions to ponder:
    ○ What does giving God your “yes” this year look this year?
    ○ How can you be faithful to the gifts God has entrusted to you?
    ○ Who could benefit from knowing what God has done in your life?

    1. I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. (Ephesians 3:16, NLT)

      “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. (John 15:5, NKJV)
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  • 16 – Jesus

    16 – Jesus

    I want all of Jesus
    The Jesus I know because I’m guided by the Spirit of Truth

    Not the Jesus that I’m comfortable with,
    or allows me to be acceptable to those around me
    who simply confirms what I want
    or what I think is best

    I want the Jesus who I don’t always like,
    but will always love
    because He loved me first

    He knows best
    because He’s the LORD of my life

    This is the Jesus I choose to pursue
    with all my heart, mind, and strength

    Jesus
    Jesus
    Jesus

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